Surrounded

Hello dear friends of mine!

Well I've been neglecting writing because I've had such an eventful past week! It's true! And you know it's funny, the more I write, the more I feel like I'm able to pinpoint the lessons I'm learning, which is kind of cool, because I've got them documented for myself, and hopefully others may find them useful as well. In any case, at this very point in time, I am overwhelmed in how blessed I feel.  Forgive the cheesiness, but I'm just in such a thankful place right now that it's hard to avoid....

Let me begin at the beginning. Last week I was under the impression I was going to be participating in something I was beyond excited for. I'm not even sure how to describe my excitement, but I really couldn't contain myself. I'm pretty sure "a dream come true" escaped my lips. And then out of nowhere last Monday, I found out through an unfair series of events that my participation was no longer needed.
Ok, so I was crushed.
Yes. I was heartbroken.
But, friends, this is when I got a dose of how lucky I actually am.

First of all, I've never really had someone around when I've been upset at something. My friends are always a phone call away, and believe me I called them, but those calls always have to end at some point, and then you're back to being along again. I found myself crying, and my man was right there beside me, listening to my nonsense (and believe me, it really was). He just sat there and listened and comforted me. It was actually so weird to me. But I'm so thankful for him. He always seems to give me exactly what I need.

I ended up telling everyone at work about the heartbreak- mostly because they all knew how excited I was in the first place, and I just wanted to douse the fire so I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore. My bosses were utterly and ridiculously supportive, and so sweet.
And then... well...one of the amazing girls I work with was kind enough to anonymously send me flowers. Me. Flowers! From someone I work with. I mean... I simply can't describe how special I felt. And how kind of her. It's almost hard to believe that someone outside of my family and closest friends would care enough about me to send me beautiful flowers to make me feel better.
And it worked. (Thank you SW)

After that I came home and saw that one of my lovely friends had written something very kind about me on her facebook page. And I was stunned! So much love!!! Such amazing and kind people in my life! How can I possibly let anything bring me down when I am surrounded by so much love?

Anyway, the sadness isn't exactly gone, in fact it reared it's ugly head in the passing away of my family dog on Saturday, but it certainly has been overshadowed by the beauty of the wonderful people in my life.
(And besides that, all dogs go to heaven, and Emily is no exception.)

And that's what has become apparent to me lately there are always going to be ups and downs- that's just how it goes. But it is so incredibly important to surround yourself with solid, loving, wonderful people. We all need a support system, no matter what we're dealing with.

I also want to point out that at some point we need to take control of the things that happen to us in our lives, and decide how we're going to let them affect us. I think it is important to be human and go through the motions of mourning, but I also think we need to make the choice as to what we will let control our lives. And no sadness, anger, jealousy, fear: it will not be you.


Just something to chew on.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

A